The Identity Rebuild (The Simulation Swap)
Riot: So you have the report. You have the code validation. You have the “official” proof that you aren’t glitched. Now what?
Most people think a diagnosis is the end of the journey. In reality, it’s the moment the NPC simulation ends and your real protagonist life begins. It’s like waking up in a hospital node after a decade of amnesia—you’re safe, but you have no idea who you actually are without the mask script. It’s not rocket appliances.
Leviticus: From a systems-integration perspective, the “After Diagnosis” phase is a high-fidelity Registry Rebuild. You are currently processing thirty or forty years of historical data through a new architectural framework. Every memory, every social failure, and every sensory meltdown is being re-categorized from “Error” to “Intended Hardware Function.”
The Unpacking Room Protocol
Riot: Imagine moving into a new server. For years, you’ve been living in a cramped, dark apartment where nothing fit. Now, you’re in a space built for your hardware. But first, you have to unpack all the old data packets.
The Items to Unpack:
- The Box of ‘Social Failures’: Take out every time you were called “weird” or “rude.” Look at the data. You weren’t rude; you were sensory-overloaded. Put those memories on the “Not My Fault” shelf.
- The Box of ‘Wasted Potential’: All those times you were told you were “so smart if only you tried harder.” You were trying harder—harder than everyone else combined. Put those on the “Unsupported Hardware” shelf.
- The Box of ‘Authenticity’: This one is at the bottom. It’s full of the things you stopped doing because they were “too much.” The hand-flapping, the deep-dives into 19th-century sewer systems, the neon-pink boots. Bring those out. They belong in the living room.
Reframing Your History (The Data Audit)
Leviticus: The “Rewritten History” is a technical requirement for stability. If you continue to view your past as a series of failures, your current system will remain unstable.
- Old Narrative: “I am an antisocial person who can’t hold a conversation.”
- New Data Point: “I am an individual with a high-fidelity internal world who requires a low-latency acoustic environment to facilitate social exchange.”
- Result: You stop apologizing. You start engineering.
The Mirror of Truth
Riot: For the first time, when you look in the mirror, you’re seeing the protagonist. Not the “failed version of someone else,” but the High-Vibration Prototype.
Adult diagnosis is about self-forgiveness. It’s about realizing that all the “work” you did was Herculean. You navigated a world that was literally screaming at you for decades, and you’re still standing. That isn’t just “resilience”; it’s Elite-Level Survival.
Stepping Into the Horizon
Leviticus: The future is a series of variables we now have the ability to control.
- Environment Selection: You no longer accept “standard” environments. You choose (or build) the ones that support your hardware.
- Social Filtering: You stop performing for people who don’t deserve your battery. You build a social constellation that values your unmasked self.
- Strategic Rest: You treat your recovery time as a mandatory technical maintenance block. No guilt, just compliance.
Riot: The horizon is glowing, friend. Let’s walk toward it.
Integration Protocol (First 90 Days):
- Phase 1 (Week 1-4): Emotional processing. Expect “Identity Exhaustion.” Prioritize 10+ hours of sleep and high-comfort sensory input.
- Phase 2 (Week 5-8): Historical audit. Review 3 major “failures” from your past and reframe them using the autism data.
- Phase 3 (Week 9-12): Strategic unmasking. Identify one social or professional environment where you can drop the mask by 10%.